Disappointment

It's been a crazy week...

BUT TODAY WAS AWE FULL!

I got a call from my DARS rep today. We were talking about Le Cordon Bleu and she started to talk about financing. She informed me that DARS would NOT be able to assist me in the way that we had talked about for me to go...let me back up a little!

When I got excepted to LCB I informed my rep that I wanted to go and I wanted to meet with her and make sure it was even possible since LCB is such an expensive college. We e-mailed back and forth and talked about it over the phone a little but she never really wanted to make the time to plan a meeting and go over ALL the details. SO....after all that e-mailing and everything we were all set for me to go to LCB.
As you all know I got totally excited and we started to make plans to go to Austin. So apparently my rep also didn't look too in depth into the paperwork (like I wanted to do) and info because she looked at the total cost of the one year degree which is REALLY EXPENSIVE!!!! (30,000 dollars + about 6,000 of equipment). Since the school is a private school and since they break down there year into TERMS not SEMESTERS the DARS can't pay for a large amount of tuition

So what it all breaks down to for me is that I would have to take out a school loan for $30,000 dollars.
We just can't see doing that! It's crazy, how am I suppose to come up with that kind of money!!!

It just breaks my heart, I guess it's partially my fault. I guess I should have known it was just too good to be true. I probably should have waited to get excited about it till it was a for sure thing but the way it was going and the way it was explained to me was that it would not be a problem, until now.

Its been really hard today because my hopes were honestly set on going. I know God can make a way. I know that if God wants me to go... nothing is going to stop it!

Until that happens I just can't help but be upset in realizing that all of this could have been prevented if she would have taken the time to talk to me in depth and really got all the facts before she agreed to it and I got my hopes up.